Where there is an agitation, a ceaselessness of the spirit, then it is a soul restless, looking and not finding its entry point into its own being. It is lost.
As it begins its own journey back home, it begins to seek the entry, the door. Its yearning is to encounter its own essence “its own God imprint.” Unable to find this it continues in its hyperactivity and agitation.
In the aging we are called to slow down in order to find the doorway back into “Eden” which has been barred by the angels with the flaming swords (Gen3:24) ”life” has forbidden our vision of paradise, just tentatively teased, this so that all that was needed for the journey could be accomplished without the anguish of what was lost “in the beginning.” But aging calls to slowly disengage from the outer world works so that the inner tunes may be more easily heard. So that the centre of the soul may be more easily found and recognised. In this place of divine abode, the moment of this soul’s birth is seen. The glory which it possessed from all eternity is now truly seen and accepted “The Kingdom of God is at hand” (Mk1:15) this is now finally understood. In silence steeped in love this becomes possible. Love has carried the vision along.
Life is lived so that the development of divine manners, lost in those dim eons may be relearned. So perhaps it could be said that at the end of life we may not find ourselves strangers and homeless in what should be our natural homeland, because the necessary manners meant for heaven have not been learnt and are missing.
Nothing of the old order or journey’s effects are lost but retained and re organised in a different manner. Indeed preserved are the important things which grace purifies. Re-established grace, together with all its valuable gifts lead to ascension; Life with its purification is raised higher into Grace of God and ultimate union with Him.
